Bulimic? I hope not!

I'm a bit insulted, but I'm gonna let it go.

My cousin called me an anorexic to my face. Yep… I got thinner. I've lost weight. From my 89-91 lbs, I had dropped to 86. Yes, I haven't been eating what's on the table lately. But I'm NOT an anorexic.

I mentioned medication made me nauseated, so I'd felt like puking often (but only puked ONCE) and I'd have…well, TMI, those days I feel nauseated. I connected the nausea to all those bad stuff the doctor told me to never eat. I didn't just come to this conclusion from out of nowhere. I had asked other people who'd been taking this medication for a long time. I had asked the pharmacist who said that more than 50 to 60 percent react this way, so BOOHOO me. :p

So there. I try to avoid the white rice at home.

But of course nobody wants to switch to brown rice over here. It's too much of a hassle to make brown rice for myself only to let it extend and turn dry come the next meal! The salad I'd eat with my protein doesn't help — I'd been taking in WAY less calories than I'd always had. The nausea certainly doesn't help me eat — I skip the meal before commuting to school just so I won't puke during an exam or something!

Hrmm…I do something else too. My doc won't like it. I haven't been taking my meds. Of course the inevitable end would be screwing up my body beyond belief.

Well, I really do want to fix it. I'll go back to the doc, talk about adjusting the meds, and I'll start eating the right stuff. Hrmm… And I'll start eating breakfast again so I take the meds WITH food.

Screwed up my HRT with progesterone too. I'm supposed to take it days 17-26 of my cycle. I..err…forgot day 21 (exams and stress made me forget. Hehe) and ended up getting my period six to seven days before it was supposed to come. 

Bummer. The doc might not take me seriously after this. :p

Ah well.

Welcome to the real world.

Why I Need the Lifestyle Change…

My hair's falling off again. It's still thin. I'm not sure about how capable I will be about regrowing anything.

I'm getting chubby around the stomach yet again.

My doctor might give up on me.

I REALLY am afraid of more serious complications.

After stuffing my face with tons of chocnut earlier (I could easily have had finished more than a pack the past couple of days, in addition to the cake and all those other carbs-sources and white rice!), I realized I was back to my midnight eating. Not good.

If I refuse to begin eating healthy again, the least I can do is get some control over when I eat and what I eat. No more regular softdrinks for me! Also, no more midnight eating. The eating healthy part can wait. I just have to reach a stable area first!

Immediate Summer Goals

• get a job to make money
• find a thesis advisor asap
• find a place to volunteer in
• write SOMETHING. ANYTHING.
• type up that article for chicken soup
• relearn French: Je voudrais apprendre francais.

P.S. I bought a cute pair of brown suede boots. I love 'em! Bought 'em on sale!

Monday’s Dinner

Salpicao was a success despite the adjustments I had to make. Since we went to No Frills (The prices at this supermarket are cheaper for a reason — VERY LITTLE CHOICE.), I had to settle with what ingredients I found there. I needed tenderloin and I ended up with tough cuts of stewing beef. That kind of cut needs longer cooking time so I had to settle with medium rare for some batches. Bummer.

I made some changes with this blog…

I wonder if I should undo them.

Bummer

My meds and the stuff I eat just don't agree. For the third time in the last three weeks, I was so nauseated I thought I was going to either collapse or hurl — and as usual I was in the bus..Then in the subway, I kinda regained some control. When we got to my station though, I was ready to give up trying to control myself. Luckily, I was able to hold it in until I got to the bathroom — minimum damage.

Hrmm…

I don't want to give up my Met.

Let’s Go Raptors!

It's sure! The Toronto Raptors are IN the NBA Play-Offs! The season's not done yet, but we're a shoo-in already. Whee!

Sunday Meal

The meal I cooked was work that I was famished after cooking it. In any event, it was a success. I tweaked the recipes so much though that I can say they're really my recipes!

I made… Beef with mushroom sauce, hot potato salad, and white rice. With a bottle of pop, the whole menu made for a special Sunday dinner.

Tomorrow, salpicao and roasted veggies!